why?

Things keep on happening again and again. I don't know why I keep on experiencing the same things that happened in the past. Did I really learn from it or am I just too dumb to realize? I don't know anymore, it's eating up my mind. It kills my happiness. It stings my body. It saddens my soul. It's just...why? Years have passed already but there are really things that will remind you of how your past looked like, of how it shattered you, of how it broke you so much you don't want to get up and face the world with smile. It's too tiring to believe in the fact that somehow, somewhere, we're gonna get through of our shits. It's too tiring and I want to burst out all this unsaid words that have been buried in my chest. This is too much already. If this what quitting means, then I'd rather do so than hold on to something that isn't making me happy anymore. So tired. So tired.

I have been manifesting negative energies, I don't know why. All these years, I tried to be positive about something but then, life sometimes offer some unfavourable situations. It always slaps me right through my face.

I didn't really learn, after all. But please let's keep the faith, self.